It’s 2:45. I watch as the flames dance together inside the candle I just lit as a means to ease my mind from the constant thoughts that manage to emerge when I don’t want them to
I’m constantly traveling back to the past.
Worried about my future, wondering if I’m going to make it in this life
But what does that mean, and what does that look like?
I think I’m stuck where my mind screams 17, but my body says I’m 33
Not being able to live out your life normally.
Not having unfortunate things happen to you that will alter your life’s trajectory as you get older.
And so I dance with the flames as if there isn’t a care in the world.
Peacefully released from this inner turmoil of sadness and confusion
And we dance together in this mesmerizing bliss.
Letting go of the past and not afraid of what’s to come regarding the future
It’s 2:45, and I watch these flames dance this rhythmic dance of completion, togetherness.
And I realize something.
I am not alone
I’m not alone in my pain
My fears
My struggles
My questions for the future
I, like these flames, have a tribe of my own who supports and loves me.